Word,

“I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because I like boys. I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m controlling because I get mad. Sometimes I’m clingy because I like being around people. I’m greedy because I like to be satisfied. I’m naive because I’m younger than you. I’m conceited because I’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. I'm unappreciative because i don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who I am because i already know.”

Always coming back to,

Incubus, love of my life.













I am never coming down
coming down from this dream
I am safe here,
you won't be seeing me
my heart is locked tight
tight in my chest
nobody can touch me here.

sometimes,

I wish it would have just stopped in the moment
stopped before it began
but froze long enough to take it all in
the rush, the rain, the feel we gain
but now it's filled with a bitter pain
at least we got that kiss in the rain.

you may think it doesn't matter to me, but it does.

I only NEED,

Myself.
My family.
My real friends.
My self-respect.
Working out.
Oxygen.
Music.
Art.
My creativity.
My drive.
Self expression.
The present.

I feel like,

a different person completely.

Still in love with Atmosphere<3








Pocket full of gossip says this ain't smart
When it's all said and done, can't hit restart
But I'll be damned if I don't wanna kiss you-
Hard.

Yeah,

It was as if our souls were touching
grabbing on for dear life
static love fills my entire body
no control, just force
pressure point seduction.

Women Should Be Pedestals
By: May Swenson

Women should be pedestals
moving pedestals
moving to the motions of men
Or they should be little horses
those wooden sweet oldfashioned painted rocking horses
the gladdest things in the toyroom
The pegs of their ears so familiar and dear
to the trusting fists
To be chafed feelingly
and then unfeelingly
To be joyfully ridden
until the restored egos dismount and the legs stride away
Immobile sweetlipped sturdy and smiling
women should always be waiting
willing to be set into motion
Women should be pedestals to men

Yeah,

I just really want Meghan Fox's eyebrows.

Karma IS a bitch, isn't it? HA.

Into it,

Some people really have no heart. I mean really where do you find it in yourself do it? Hurt people with no sympathy in your eyes. How do you lie straight to their faces? You disgust me, really you do.

You are who you surround yourself with.

http://www.flickr.com/inmyhead/


50 random facts about me.
1. When I am upset, the only thing that can save me is music.
2. I realize you only live once, some people don't.
3. I have a passion for anything that shows creativity and speaks to people.
4. I have a sick obsession with Gossip Girl.
5. I write down goals and to do lists like it's my job.
6. I am going to school for Health and Fitness Technology.
7. I intend on being a private personal trainer and photographer.
8. I will have a dance party with you anywhere anytime.
9. Most people who don't know me think I am conceited/snobby/stuck up and those people aren't worth my time because I am not here to prove you wrong. My only advice is get to know me.
10. I love to paint and draw.
11. I prefer independence over dependence.
12. I love techno, and that's okay with me.
13. Despite the conformity, I do love Lady GaGa.
14. I could sit and scroll through photos all day if I could
15. I have a sister named Leigh and I think she is effffinnnggg awesome.
16. I really like reading poetry.
17. I think Nicki Minaj is great.
18. Anything that sparkles is alright with me.
19. I want to own a small adorable house when I get older.
20. I would love to live the city life for a little while.
21. I am affectionately awkward at times.
22. I am done taking things for granted.
23. I love to sing.
24. My family is great.
25. One half of my family lives in Iowa and the other half lives in Arizona.
26. I am from Connecticut and I love it there.
27. All of my names mean princess.
28. When I listen to music I make music videos in my head.
29. I think smokers breath is the worst.
30. I believe Clifton is just full of terrible temptations.
31. Reading Health magazines is one of my favorite things to do.
32. I go to Wal-Mart about 3 times a week.
33. Makeup is fun to me.
34. If you call me dumb or stupid, I will be done with you forever..I promise.
35. I want to learn more about different religions.
36. I am really interested in psychology.
37. I do not believe in fighting violence with violence.
38. I am obsessed with lyrics.
39. Candy canes are my weakness.
40. I would like to travel to Australia and Greece someday.
41. I think it's funny Kanye West got on stage when Taylor Swift got her award.
42. I would love to be an actress.
43. I love Atmosphere, but who doesn't?
44. I believe everyone has their pros and cons it's just a matter of who is worth it.
45. I have anger issues.
46. I think Drake is sexy because he shows intelligence and seems humble.
50. I believe confidence IS everything.

So 2009,

You were full of more demons than any other year. I have lost friends, trust, respect and some self control. But at the same time I have never felt so alive. I am so thankful for all of my friends and family who are there for me and care about me. I have seen myself changing through the year and I am thinking it is for the better. I have realized life is something to be treasured and you can not be scared of rejection and let downs, you have to push forward and never look back. I've realized it is humanly impossible to make everyone happy and you have to be selfish sometimes and do what makes you happy. All I know is I have pushed myself to boundaries I thought I would never cross and battles I never thought I could win within myself. 2009, you made me stronger and I am ready for what 2010 has in store for me.