inmyhead

Word,

2010-05-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

“I’m a slut because I’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because I don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes I’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because I like boys. I’m annoying because I’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because I’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time I’m happy. I’m weird because I’m not like you. I’m controlling because I get mad. Sometimes I’m clingy because I like being around people. I’m greedy because I like to be satisfied. I’m naive because I’m younger than you. I’m conceited because I’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. I'm unappreciative because i don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who I am because i already know.”

Always coming back to,

2010-04-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

Incubus, love of my life.

I am never coming down
coming down from this dream
I am safe here,
you won't be seeing me
my heart is locked tight
tight in my chest
nobody can touch me here.

sometimes,

2010-03-30T21:07:00.000-07:00

I wish it would have just stopped in the moment
stopped before it began
but froze long enough to take it all in
the rush, the rain, the feel we gain
but now it's filled with a bitter pain
at least we got that kiss in the rain.

you may think it doesn't matter to me, but it does.

I only NEED,

2010-03-29T13:07:00.000-07:00

Myself.
My family.
My real friends.
My self-respect.
Working out.
Oxygen.
Music.
Art.
My creativity.
My drive.
Self expression.
The present.

I feel like,

2010-03-23T10:29:00.000-07:00

a different person completely.

Still in love with Atmosphere<3

Pocket full of gossip says this ain't smart
When it's all said and done, can't hit restart
But I'll be damned if I don't wanna kiss you-
Hard.

Yeah,

2010-03-14T08:14:00.000-07:00

2010-01-29T07:33:00.000-08:00

It was as if our souls were touching
grabbing on for dear life
static love fills my entire body
no control, just force
pressure point seduction.

2010-01-19T19:21:00.000-08:00

Women Should Be Pedestals
By: May Swenson

Women should be pedestals
moving pedestals
moving to the motions of men
Or they should be little horses
those wooden sweet oldfashioned painted rocking horses
the gladdest things in the toyroom
The pegs of their ears so familiar and dear
to the trusting fists
To be chafed feelingly
and then unfeelingly
To be joyfully ridden
until the restored egos dismount and the legs stride away
Immobile sweetlipped sturdy and smiling
women should always be waiting
willing to be set into motion
Women should be pedestals to men

Yeah,

2010-01-17T12:39:00.000-08:00

I just really want Meghan Fox's eyebrows.

2010-01-09T12:10:00.001-08:00

Karma IS a bitch, isn't it? HA.

Into it,

2010-01-07T18:51:00.000-08:00

Some people really have no heart. I mean really where do you find it in yourself do it? Hurt people with no sympathy in your eyes. How do you lie straight to their faces? You disgust me, really you do.

You are who you surround yourself with.

http://www.flickr.com/inmyhead/

50 random facts about me.
1. When I am upset, the only thing that can save me is music.
2. I realize you only live once, some people don't.
3. I have a passion for anything that shows creativity and speaks to people.
4. I have a sick obsession with Gossip Girl.
5. I write down goals and to do lists like it's my job.
6. I am going to school for Health and Fitness Technology.
7. I intend on being a private personal trainer and photographer.
8. I will have a dance party with you anywhere anytime.
9. Most people who don't know me think I am conceited/snobby/stuck up and those people aren't worth my time because I am not here to prove you wrong. My only advice is get to know me.
10. I love to paint and draw.
11. I prefer independence over dependence.
12. I love techno, and that's okay with me.
13. Despite the conformity, I do love Lady GaGa.
14. I could sit and scroll through photos all day if I could
15. I have a sister named Leigh and I think she is effffinnnggg awesome.
16. I really like reading poetry.
17. I think Nicki Minaj is great.
18. Anything that sparkles is alright with me.
19. I want to own a small adorable house when I get older.
20. I would love to live the city life for a little while.
21. I am affectionately awkward at times.
22. I am done taking things for granted.
23. I love to sing.
24. My family is great.
25. One half of my family lives in Iowa and the other half lives in Arizona.
26. I am from Connecticut and I love it there.
27. All of my names mean princess.
28. When I listen to music I make music videos in my head.
29. I think smokers breath is the worst.
30. I believe Clifton is just full of terrible temptations.
31. Reading Health magazines is one of my favorite things to do.
32. I go to Wal-Mart about 3 times a week.
33. Makeup is fun to me.
34. If you call me dumb or stupid, I will be done with you forever..I promise.
35. I want to learn more about different religions.
36. I am really interested in psychology.
37. I do not believe in fighting violence with violence.
38. I am obsessed with lyrics.
39. Candy canes are my weakness.
40. I would like to travel to Australia and Greece someday.
41. I think it's funny Kanye West got on stage when Taylor Swift got her award.
42. I would love to be an actress.
43. I love Atmosphere, but who doesn't?
44. I believe everyone has their pros and cons it's just a matter of who is worth it.
45. I have anger issues.
46. I think Drake is sexy because he shows intelligence and seems humble.
50. I believe confidence IS everything.

So 2009,

2010-01-01T12:34:00.000-08:00

You were full of more demons than any other year. I have lost friends, trust, respect and some self control. But at the same time I have never felt so alive. I am so thankful for all of my friends and family who are there for me and care about me. I have seen myself changing through the year and I am thinking it is for the better. I have realized life is something to be treasured and you can not be scared of rejection and let downs, you have to push forward and never look back. I've realized it is humanly impossible to make everyone happy and you have to be selfish sometimes and do what makes you happy. All I know is I have pushed myself to boundaries I thought I would never cross and battles I never thought I could win within myself. 2009, you made me stronger and I am ready for what 2010 has in store for me.

Obsessed..

2009-12-30T22:31:00.000-08:00

With Gossip Girl...very unhealthy.

In your glasshouse..

2009-12-28T23:07:00.000-08:00

Heavy is the head that wears that crown.

If..

2009-12-21T22:35:00.000-08:00

sugar coated..

2009-12-20T07:55:00.000-08:00

I refuse to sugar coat situations,
just for your minds clear temptations
but I know, deliberation

it's killing you and I.

Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?

2009-12-17T09:37:00.000-08:00

Written by Joyce Carol Oates in 1966.
Inspired by and written for Bob Dylan after hearing It's All Over Now, Baby Blue.
Written after three murders committed by Charles Schmid in Tuscon, Arizona.
Read it.

It's All Over Now, Baby Blue.-Bob Dylan

You must leave now, take what you need, you think will last.
But whatever you wish to keep, you better grab it fast.
Yonder stands your orphan with his gun,
Crying like a fire in the sun.
Look out all the saints are comin' through
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

The highway is for gamblers, better use your sense.
Take what you have gathered from coincidence.
The empty-handed painter from your street
Is drawing crazy patterns on your sheets.
This sky, too, is folding under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

All your seasick sailors, they are rowing home.
Your empty-handed armies, they are going home.
The lover who just walked out your door
Has taken all his blankets from the floor.
The carpet, too, is moving under you
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

Leave your stepping stones behind, there's something that calls for you.
Forget the dead you've left, they will not follow you.
The vagabond who's rapping at your door
Is standing in the clothes that you once wore.
Strike another match, go start anew
And it's all over now, Baby Blue.

To know is to feel,

2009-12-16T22:26:00.000-08:00

I am terrible, really.

2009-12-15T12:27:00.000-08:00

It's In Your Blood-Lydia.

I can't stay over you.
It seems we drive forever but can never get away from here,
just one more try.
I'm guessing you are over me, I guess it's bravery.
Well cause it's black out the window while you sleep in the passenger seat.
It's gone.

Oh when it's always on your mind but you never speak of the name.
It's in your blood and face and I'm certain it's fame.
So I stayed out in the car cause the weather had gotten to me.
But its really these road signs and freeways that I can't take.

This can't be how you live.
It's like a, a ball and chain around your waist or this simple state.
Your mind's sick again.
I'm tasting nothing but 4 words, "please don't leave me".
And it's Dark in the winter so your ideas start to sleep.

Well your head is spinning like that carousel,
and I know you're a mess after 3 or 4.
But if you make it different then we'll make our way to the surface,
and your favorite place.
Where we sit, and we breath.
cause I know all the words and I sing you everything.
Well they're just thoughts so go ahead and speak.
So pick out what you like and call me when you're on the way.
You can spend the night and hope to sleep all day.
For me its just another week, twenty eight was once how I dreamed.
And with your scent on my face I can leave and have you for days.

I still can't see you.
The summer came and we got lost, all of us.
You are nothing with out her.
I still wont remember your face,
the features mix too well with this alcohol.
So we cover ourselves in your fear,
and stay to watch that moon disappear under these lights.
This city, this city's screaming at me.
And as you breathe the words I better go.
The sun is up and taking back all the shadows that covered this ground,
and our feet, like a blanket of coal.

Why do you come around,

2009-12-14T17:55:00.000-08:00

Everything is all fucked up right now.

What the fuck is wrong with me?..#!@%@@#

2009-12-13T08:47:00.000-08:00

Right there with you in your glasshouse.

GRANTED.

Call me crazy but..

2009-12-08T20:27:00.000-08:00

I find Lady Gaga to be very inspiring. She has this element that nobody else has had for a very long time, I would go as far as to say she is a combination of Madonna/Micheal Jackson/Marilyn Manson/Prince sprinkled with some Britney Spears. She is oozing with great dance music and powerful fashion sense. I enjoy watching everything she has created so far and believe she has a lot of talent. I hope she continues to create and entertain by pushing the envelope a bit further every time.

Lady Gaga |MTV Music

2009-12-05T13:29:00.000-08:00

We drive, we drive.
You make me feel alive.
and in all my pride, I never lied.

It's those blue eyes, that mock those skies.

It's 9:38 PM

2009-12-03T18:37:00.000-08:00

I have been sitting on the computer too long, but that is beside the point. I was just looking at some old friends and people of my past and it's just sad. Most of what I see makes me think about how it use to be, what those people use to say. Then I look at myself and I have changed too. Everyone has changed...it feels weird now.

I am so tired of taking things for granted.

2009-11-24T09:54:00.001-08:00

Iowa.

I can almost taste you in my skin, feel you in my eyes.
Your beauty captures, your peace, surefire.
The road so long I get lost in the thoughts.
The sky a pale gray, now I can't wait to get away.
Oh you keep me sane.

Iowa 2007. Photographed by: Me.

Sunday afternoon..

2009-11-22T21:02:00.000-08:00

Leigh and I had an afternoon photo shoot..

So much going on right now.
I need to read a good book.
Tired...sleep.

Sweet nothings for the numb,

2009-11-21T11:20:00.000-08:00

you feel where I'm coming from?

I can not wait for Thanksgiving dinner in Iowa! :) Lots of photo opportunities. Which reminds me.. http://www.flickr.com/inmyhead

Conforming.

2009-11-19T20:41:00.000-08:00

So miley is getting all risque with her wardrobe, but she rocks it for sure. I don't know about her talent though. She is an off and on love for me.

So about this New Moon movie. I mean really what is the big freakin' deal? I feel like a conformist even bringing it up. Yeah, vampires are sexy and all but what is with the obsession. America obsesses over the weirdest shit. Another example being that Glee television show, it's like High School Musical in a damn television show except a little fucked up, FTW.

I need to step my blog game up.

2009-11-17T19:25:00.000-08:00

Nicki Minaj is a big deeeal.

She kills it, unlike the male rappers in this video.

Oh and I think this is awesome,

Sicker than your average, I walk around with my head high, kind of woman. Not because I’m full of it, full of shit, or think I’m better than the rest, but because I know who I am and I’m proud to be, a woman.

Far from average, I handle business on a daily, kind of woman. On the grind, on a mission to provide, for everyone, kind of woman. Take one good look, because that’s all you’re going to get; no time to slow down for anything, woman.

If you want to waste my time, I’m not your woman.

I get mine and hope you’re getting yours too, kind of woman. No stuck up shit, I’m headed to the top and want to take you with me, woman.

You want to know me, know my mind and soul, not just my scent or the way my hips move, kind of woman. I set my standards high because I know what I deserve, kind of woman. No doubt, I appreciate for what it is, but if it’s not meant to be, I keep things moving, kind of woman.

I love love and love hard, so be prepared, kind of woman. Beyond sexual, so intellectual, I want to enlighten, be your soul’s inspiration, kind of woman. I don’t take a thing for granted because I know nothing lasts forever, but I’ll forever be, a woman.

Forever, your woman, if that was the case.

I believe in the highest power who gave me my purpose, my power, as a woman. I do what I love and I love what I do, kind of woman. I don’t stress to impress anyone but myself; I am a perfectionist, yet imperfect altogether so appreciate it, kind of woman.

I won’t trip if you don’t, it’s not the end of the world, woman. Respect is given but can easily be lost, kind of woman. No drama resides here because I’m a positive kind of woman, a positive woman. It’s all in the laws of the universe, I can and will be where I need to be, kind of woman.

So let’s keep it moving, women. I’m for change and for the better, kind of woman. I want to make a change because I know I can, kind of woman.

So stand up because I know we can, women.

2009-10-13T19:44:00.000-07:00

I have come to the conclusion that, I need these shoes.

If you are interested in fitness you need to purchase the Physique 57 DVDs, I have only done one and it kicked my ass.

http://physique57.com/

So the Holidays!
-Hot chocolate/apple cider/coffee.
-Candy canes!
-Lots of dessert.
-Christmas trees.
-CHRISTMAS LIGHTS!
-Leaves changing colors.
-Snow!
-Christmas music.
-Christmas movies.
-Thanksgiving dinner in Iowa.
-Halloween costumes!
-Mistletoe.
-Snow men.
-Winter coats.
-Warm sweaters.
-Baking Christmas cookies.
-Cuddling, HA!
-and um CANDY CANES!
and Christina Aguilera's Christmas CD in my car! :)

Now you're in New York

2009-09-23T10:47:00.000-07:00

Jay-Z - New Music - More Music Videos

New York, concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothin' you can't do
out of New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear it for New York, New York,
New York

I enjoy The Blueprint 3.